It’s just 6 inches of water – yet it’s enough to drown in.
It’s just 6 inches of paper – yet it’s worth the denomination printed on it.
It’s just 6 inches – but able to end life.
It’s just 6 inches – but not a hole in one!
It’s just 6 inches – so why is it such an insurmountable obstacle?
For all of you that thought I was talking about a male appendage – I knew you’d go there. We are easily led! but get your mind out of the gutter because that isn’t what this is about.
It’s about brains! BRRRRAAAAAAIIINSSS! Sorry, was distracted by the zombies on TV.
Brains: that 6 inches of gray matter between your ears. Now, I know all about calories in and calories out. It takes 3500 calories burned to lose a pound. I know the calorie expenditure must be greater than the calorie consumption. I know it takes cardio to lose weight. I know it takes weight training to tone the muscles and that muscle burns more calories than fat. I know all these things. I know how to use the equipment at the YMCA. I know how to follow the path around our park even though Runkeeper can’t seem to geotrack it from one day to the next.
I tweeted a session that the gps wasn’t working – and after 1.8 miles walking, sweating in Missouri summer heat the app said I had walked .02 miles. REALLY?????? I tweeted it and I don’t think anyone even got it. (FYI – That was a seriously sarcastic post!)
I know the difference between nutritional foods and empty calorie junk foods. I prepare well balanced meals for our family and I know how to cook. I even know how to prepare low calorie protein rich foods that taste amazing.
What I don’t know is how to overcome those 6 inches of gray matter. When life gets tough, as it often does I revert to a conditioned response. We all do it. some people reach for a cigarette. some people reach for a drink. Some people tear into the housework like there’s a demon on their tail. Then there are people like me, that go on autopilot and stress eat.
When there’s tension between me and someone I love, I stress eat. When I am nervous about a deadline, or missing a deadline, or an approaching appointment I stress eat. When I am feeling down on myself, I stress eat. ( I know , it makes no sense but I do.) When don’t I stress eat? When I am angry. When I am angry I become the white tornado cleaning everything in sight to a sparkling sterilized form that the hospital staff would be jealous of.
Aside from being angry all the time, which I don’t really see as a valid answer. I think my blood pressure might be affected and I don’t need that! In fact no one around me needs Angry Ellie around more than she is.
It’s not a matter of knowledge, I know loads of stuff pertaining to health, fitness and nutrition. I am an intelligent woman and I didn’t need the IQ test to verify it. Although, that did help prove my point when I was employed by the government. Something about an official score gets respect amongst your coworkers.
It’s not a matter of will. I don’t have quite the iron will that my mother had, mine is Titanium. Where there is a will there is a way and I am determined to find it.
It’s a matter of retraining your brain; disengaging the rabbit tracks that are worn into a groove. You know what I mean, that conditioned response that sends us onto the track on autopilot.
For example, the husband comes home and comments on the pile of folded laundry on the bed that didn’t get put away, Now he didn’t see the other 3 baskets full that were already washed, sorted and put away. Nor did he see the dishes that were left on the counter after breakfast washed dried and put away. And he didn’t see the shoes that he left in front of the recliner with stinky socks sticking out of them that had to be put away before vacuuming the carpet. Or for one minute do you even think he’s going to acknowledge that prestigious job of scrubbing out the toilet? NO, of course not! So, the thing he notices is the thing left undone.
So what happens? the rabbit comes out of the chute and your braindogs are off and running around the track, chasing the rabbit as it moves along the groove, following the same path every single time. How do you break the cycle? You’ve got to replace your dogs. Hack down the wooden bunny. Change your race track to something else.
We have to reprogram our programs.
When i grew up, food was punishment and reward. “YOU will sit here and eat this tuna casserole if it takes you till midnight.” To which my response was to sit there refusing to eat tuna casserole until 12:05. At which time my mother was ordered by my father to let me go to bed so I could go to school the next day. Iron will mother put the tuna casserole in a container for my lunch. Titanium willed me dumped the contents in the trash and skipped lunch. The smell of tuna casserole makes me cringe and causes a response of losing my appetite at the imagined smell.
Ah, maybe that’s it! I make tuna casserole and I won’t desire to eat anything at all. Hmm, maybe if I do the tuna casserole combined with the anger switch I can avoid falling into the same rabbit track I’ve always reverted to.
What does this have to do with writing? Simple: every area of our lives are affected by the other areas. If one is out of balance the others will eventually be affected. Feeling unable to win a battle in one area causes you to feel inferior in other areas.
Think about it!
Write on my friends, write on!