Let’s see . . . where was I? The past few weeks have had me in a whirl. Life is like that at times, but then at others, it slows down for a moment or two.
I went back through my planner for the previous month and this month evaluating where I am in my goals. I discovered back in April that I wasn’t doing so well on my yearly goals as I would like to but, my daily goals were getting marked off the list.
I have a long way to go before I can boast about my pages, they are for my use not for the beautification of the internet. I am pleased though that I have made a modicum of success in productivity. I know that I have too many irons in the fire. I think it goes with my personality. But the secondary part of me protests at every opportunity.
The hard driving task master Type A over-achiever barely allows enough time after completion of one task before pushing me to the next while the Party Princess gets excited about an achievement! Do you realize what an achievement means?
It’s an opportunity for celebration . . .
“YAY! Party! Party! Party! I can make a cake. We’ll fire up the grill, barbecue, and have some people over. Corn on the cob, potato salad, chips, margaritas, mac & cheese . . . or maybe watermelon!” *Party Princess is lost in thought deciding what to do for decorations, appropriate celebratory foods, games, activities, who to invite*
“Stop! We don’t have time to arrange a party. We need to move onto the next task at hand.” Taskmaster states firmly before purchases occur.
*Party Princess pouts while giving death glare*
“Well, maybe a small celebration. Just the family.” Taskmaster back pedals to avoid a halt in production and appease the Party Princess as she recalls the last halt lasted several days.
“No party? No decorations?” Party Princess’ jaw clenches tighter.
You can decorate a cake. Keep it simple. We need to move on to the next project or rather get back to the office downstairs.”
Princess sighs. “I don’t want to work on the office. You pushed all of my ideas aside to focus on cleaning out the daughter’s room and said I can’t paint.”
“Yet. I said yet. We still need to get the wiring done, the light fixtures installed before the drywall can go up. Then you can tape, spackle and after that, paint.” Taskmaster enunciates the words in irritation as she glances over the long list of things yet to be accomplished.
Princess opens her Kindle and begins playing Aquarium game. “NO. I don’t feel like working. NO party. NO work.”
Task master’s head sags in defeat.
(This is the part where the task master debates the consequences of giving in to the inner child and allowing a bit of celebration. Without the party, the princess will pout, mope and not cooperate with anything productive. The balance of time lost in production opposed to time lost due to pouting and the latest shiny make the decision an analytical decision while the Princess solely operates in the emotional realm. If not resolved, it quickly can cause the chakras [I know I may not be using that right, but I hope you understand what I mean] to be out of alignment and chaos will ensue. This is a delicate situation.
For those who are new here, I am not truly bipolar or split personality. I am not making light of those things either. Within everyone’s personality are dualities and traces of sometimes a third minor aspect to make you who you uniquely are. My personality goes back and forth between these two.
This was an easy way to share why I don’t get more done. Not making excuses because sometimes the Taskmaster wins, sometimes the party Princess wins and sometimes on rare occasions when the moon is waning, the stars are in alignment, and the jet stream is flowing in a general west to east direction without a major trough, they work together happily.
The rational parts of my brain are screaming to the task master that if she allows celebrations for the small steps, the general morale of Party Princess will be at a higher level thus, production rates will increase. Party Princess is a fast worker when motivated. Hence the importance of deadlines!
Meanwhile, while I am working on a truce between the two I am going over my planner. Some adjustments need to be made for the coming month. This month has looked like one of my old planners with appointments, meetings, daily tasks and not much else.
The inner child must not feel oppressed while the adulting task master must feel like something is getting accomplished. Take some time to celebrate your small victories because life is a journey.
One step after another, along the path that leads to your destiny. Enjoy everyday life along the way to get to where you want to be and don’t wait until you’ve arrived because tomorrow is not a guarantee.
Write on my freinds, write on!